Forget about the title for a moment. As I am writing this, there are about 9 sites and blogs opened in my browser and few other applications beside god knows what else I was trying to do and I forgot leaving my 1 GB memory 3 years old laptop suffering. Being the master of distraction I am, this normal for me. Something always brings me back to it and not sure whether it is a dream, hope, obsession, escape or hobby? I can’t seem to see where is this going to take me. I am talking about what started like a healthy child hobby long ago but never really was developed enough. I always wanted a career in the games industry, it is the only thing that seemed satisfying for me, it is what I thought I am best at doing, and not seeing almost anyone around me have any clue what is this about made me feel different and sometimes smart, but also discouraged me a lot. This is before having internet, yes in 1997 the internet was new for majority of population in Egypt including myself.
I haven’t gotten far, and recently I was satisfied with the fact that I should be responsible enough now and compromise my choices in life. Simply if I want to have decent living and make enough income to allow me living the life style that I want I should gave up on my little big dream. It’s not easy to let go of my biggest dreams, so I allowed myself to keep a close distance while giving other things more priority. As I am keeping an open eye, reading articles here and there, watching other game makers work or playing a game, I get inspired, and idea sparks in my mind and I start an innocent attempt to test it out. I get side tracked and I leave everything I was supposed to finish, I continue doing that until I struggle. At this point I know I can finish if I just hang around a little longer, but I also remember other stuff I had to finish. Then I feel guilty and wonder I should have never had this interest. It’s frustrating sometimes and this is why I think a hobby may just lead to a bad habit “Hobbit”.
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